chemo 2: super heroes

the first chemo is 4 cycles — two of which are finished, halfway! i met with my oncologist again on monday pre-infusion and we’ve both made the observation the largest mass feels different and best described as ‘softer’, which we chalked up to a good sign. the regimen that i am currently on is the most aggressive while also being the most tolerated, so i am grateful to have these adjectives working together for me. side effects of cycle 2 seem to be comparable to side effects of cycle 1; my temperature feels more stable than it did, my appetite decent but i think less, the taste in my mouth hasn’t gotten worse since last week, no nausea or vomiting, and no bone pain from tuesdays nuelasta shot yet. i do have cold/sore throat symptoms though, which is not ideal.

i am most certainly feeling fatigued and foggy brained, which will be two things that continue to accumulate as the weeks go on and which i am already having a hard time adjusting to. i am not used to impaired concentration or communication and find this to be anxiety provoking. i have to add about 6 new reminders a day on my phone so i don’t forget important business.

today i am seeing my surgeon for a port follow up and tomorrow is planned as my last day of work. emotions are best described as on edge, as this week has brought a lot of change that is going to take time to accept. Audrey’s teacher reported she is “her same smiley, hard-working self” at school which was good to hear and she is sooo excited to be seven days away from 7 YEARS OLD and Papa & Maga’s arrival.

that’s all for today. please feel free to reach out and send some good energy — i may not reply but i will soak it up like the sun.